在会计师楼翻工翻左两个星期了，虽然只是半职，但毕竟都是对口的工作。两个星期来每天都是对着一盘盘的数，一堆堆的凭证，不知道为什么，心里没有一丝的厌倦。是因为本身是读金融会计，抑或是因为终于在2个月后找到了工作？所谓的空虚、寂寞，都是自己的空想。过往的烦恼，在工作了两个星期后，就消失得无形无踪。不是成为了工作狂，而是觉得工作每时每刻都给你挑战。单单一个数字，就需要你去分析良久。时下，不懂算计，也就会被淘汰。可能人要活下来，就需要挑战、困难、刺激。这就好比恋爱，无新鲜感就等于结束一样。

 

呢几个月，从自己从来不相信的知耻近乎勇，到浪涛后的低洼，终于变翻以前甘样，而且这次更厉害了。是好事吗？反正有转变到另一个程度就是好事。晤知点解，相信几年后在广州的普华永度会计师楼会多一个大家熟悉的名字，等我……

有很多个月没有更新日志了

自从玮伦离开了后

自从第二次遇上情感的挫折后

日志就仿佛无限期地停留在某个角落

这几个月来

好像想了很多

好像做了很多

可惜那林林总总

却来得没有任何意义

或许吧

朋友同学面前的李晖总是在筹谋着未来

但今天的我……好像已经不懂得如何打算

我从来不要求些什么

我从来不奢望自己是生活上的强者

可以说是无欲无求

但我为什么还是笑不起来

我并不想板着面孔对人

毕竟我想我身边的人都开心起来

尽管我不是神

不能愉悦所有人

以为我很快乐幸福的人，我真的不好意思让他们知道我的感受

我相信

终有一日会有真正了解我，包容我的人

融进我的生活当中

可是到现在，那个人还是没有出现

最近越来越觉得自己心感孤单

想说给人听

但是，就算找到适合的人，又能真的改变什么吗……

更何况这种人，很难找

累了……

真想继续停下来

但生活还是要自己去筹谋……

这就是做人

希望睡醒一觉后可以忘记现在的感觉

 

网志

此时此刻成为我抒发感情的工具

原谅我用这样的文字去使用它

我的朋友们……

Greetings,

 

I decided to delete all my blog entries on January 21st, 2007, the date I turned to be 20 years old. In the past two years and three months in Calgary, Canada, I really experienced a lot. Some of my experiences were touching stories, while some of them made me either furious or angry. However, writing blog entries is really a good habit for me, not only practicing my developing English, but also letting my friends know what in the world I am doing.

 

I should be grateful to meeting new friends in Canada. I was really a silent guy. who didn't like to talk so much, when I was in China. Whenever I spoke up, retarded words will just be popped out from my mouth. Things have been changed now and I guess I don't need retarded words while I talk to people?

 

Being retarded is always a good attribute and I am honour that I can be retarded all the time. People say I am smart, but genius is only smart in the area s/he is good at. For me, I am good at nothing really. I just enjoy being retarded that's all. After being a loser for asking for love twice, I decided to give up girls for now. That's not negative, but just doing what I should do. Girls are extravagant luxury for guys, aren't they? lol

 

Hopefully, my blogs will talk about more positive things. Stop being negative! Stop procrastinating! Stop being moody! That's the goal for 2007. Never ask me whether I would stay in Canada or not after graduation because I dun know! Never ask me when I would have a girlfriend because I dun know and now my heart is still thinking of her! and blah blah blah...

 

Raymond H. Li